Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Pretty Young Thing

July is the month where I take stock of where I am, and where I want to be. It is the month of my birth, and as simple as it my seem, it is my favorite month; a month filled with love, growth, and hope. It has and always will be this for me.
This year seems especially important. I will be thirty five. I feel like I am exactly where I should be with most things, but I never fail to dream on an almost hourly basis. This does not seem to ring true for most that are my age.
Also, I feel like the last couple weeks could not have happened at a better time, even though what has occurred is quite bittersweet.
Although there is plenty of eye-rolling and negativity out there, I will never falter when it comes to recognizing the important roles people have played in my life, and how profound it was for my mother to tell me (from an age that most don't remember) that I should always treat people the way I wanted to be treated, and that everyone deserves love. With this, I can honestly say, Michael Jackson still makes me feel the way he did when I first received 'Thriller'. He made me love music, he made me love dance, and most importantly, he made me fall in love for the first time. I remember how sweetly my parents listened to me plan my wedding with him, and without ever skipping a beat, my mom told me it could happen.
I was raised by two incredibly strong people, people that taught me to walk in the footsteps of others, people that are filled with love, passion, and most importantly, compassion. Between the two of them, the only time I heard anything even remotely negative was when someone outright wronged me, my brother, or sister(understandable).
I think it is sad when people can't see magic, and can't appreciate someone or something for all that it is, whether that is in ugliness or beauty. And for this, I can honestly say I was the most blessed person for being born to my mom and dad. And, I am not embarrassed to mourn; mourn not only a major force behind all that I love in popular culture, but also mourn that I too will one day pass, and hope that I somehow left a positive impact on those that I was fortunate enough to know. This mound of tear soaked tissues is proof of my love.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I am proud of myself for these few things today:
1. I went to work, and cleaned three houses in the exact amount of time that it should have taken.
2. Tiffany and I went to the gym. I ran only two miles, and walked one. It will get better.
3. I decided to get on the ball again. I am so fucking bored with my life right now.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


my closet is filled with casual wear dating up to a decade ago...i am making my peace with it and donating it all.

a huge weight has been lifted.

i like letting go of the past.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

a la carte

i love today. it is beautiful and warm. my day is going to be spent...
planning my garden
and having a fun time with melissa and tiffany. tuesday is our night of nights.
dinner and drinks on the porch...
does it get any better?

Monday, March 16, 2009

webisode, yeah i said it.

so many plans for this, but i have a lot of research to do, which is not one of my favorite things. i should be more excited to teach myself things that i previously never cared about. i wish i could just have the information uploaded into my brain. perfect.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

aww yeah...

i am about to get into some serious math, but soon i want to write about...
1. the best pizza i have ever had, and it was made by me.
2. the serious cleaning i have been doing...let's just say i am making some sweeping changes...
3. web shows, starring me and tiffany. be prepared.
4. i like el mundo night with tif and mel.

Friday, February 27, 2009

simple simple.

i have the fever to clean out my house of all that is useless and pointless. this will probably end up including almost all of my possessions. i am going to start small, but before i know it, i think i will have an empty house. yes.