tea time

i just spent my last night with jax and joen before they head home tomorrow. it is funny how the visit and departure of loved ones always makes me feel the urge to accomplish what i have been putting off. passing time is more apparent and seems way more precious, when your loved ones are leaving your side. unfortunately, i always fall victim to letting the moments i prize most slip through my fingers...i am always caught up in what i have to do, or, have done, and i forget to live in the moment. this is one of the things i want to work on in the new year. i want to have more time for myself, which, will in turn make me more available to all of those that i love. my brain has not stopped all week, and i have been keeping a running list of everything that i am grateful for, or enjoy. i was very happy to spend most of the day with tiffany on her thirtieth birthday. she griped quite a bit, but even her gripes make me happy. i am also so glad to have had my late tea time with jackie and joen. and most importantly, i am thankful for the happiness i sensed in poppy's voice when he told me his physical therapy went well today. i actually can't think of a single moment that i am not thankful for. i look forward to this next day.

yeah yeah yeah

so tonight was great. i had a few of my favorites at my side; two of which that don't live here, and two that are moving. i feel like my life is comprised of trying to hold on to people constantly moving on and visiting with those here on a quick visit.

move

so, after several months of subliminal blogging, i am back. today is one of those days that i am so excited about everything. i have a million and one ideas running through my head, and i can't keep up at all. i am on the make. in more ways than one. yes.see if you can keep up.

in the reins

yeah, not too much hope for me writing my words instead of thinking them. my days are filled with all that makes me sleepy and slightly boring. i enjoyed this day though, because i spent it with so many people that make me happy, and because sleep is about to happen. i can't wait to start out fresh, tomorrow. maybe if i uploaded a picture, this post would have more of an impact.

posture, and american football

okay, so i know that a lot of time has passed by since i last posted, but, i honestly have to say that it feels as if my last post was just yesterday, and i have lived a lifetime in just that one day.

this is what i am thinking about:

one. i need to run, and stand up/ sit-up straight. i have only used my gym membership twice. i have had it for almost three weeks. i have to remember that my work is work, and that no matter how physical it is, it is not exercise.

two. autumn nights, and listening to my standard fall play lists that include american football, pinback, built to spill, and the newly added(but already a classic)sea wolf.

three.the economy, the future(i am excited for it), and politics. oh, and what i will eat in the morning.

four. the importance of posting my words, instead of imagining what i will post.

five. the winter coming early with the departure of two of my closest confidants: my favorite little bird, j.woolard, and the best personal assistant a girl could ask for, t. word.

six. i will have so much more, tomorrow.

craving...

i treated myself to taking the day off... the swollen eyelids i am suffering from aided in the decision. i slept -in later than usual, and began my minimalist diet with a salad of albacore and salad greens. i can't help but looking around my kitchen, admiring all of the food i can't eat. i have constant visions of (valentines day) shortbread and chocolate dancing in my head. ..and i am well aware of the fact i cannot even have a taste of either for at least a month. produce isles are going to have to qualm all of my unnatural cravings. instead of eating a bread and chocolate phinney bar, i ate two bananas, a roasted sweet potato and roasted cabbage. i still have half of a day to go...yes, on my official first day.

the first week is always described as the hardest.

elimination

so, after what could easily add up to being two thirds of my life, i am finally going to tackle the food allergies that i have. i have endured many of the tell-tale symptoms; the intestinal, sinus, lung, joint, and skin issues have "plagued" me for over twenty years. my passion for food (namely cheese, sugar, and chocolate) has driven me to look past what havoc it can all wreak on my body. this past week has been one of my worst yet, convincing me to finally face my demons...is there life after gluttony?
after just finishing off four bite-sized vosges caramels (only because their expiration date is in less than a month), i am anxiously anticipating the morning. i am officially beginning my elimination diet to find all of the irritating food in my life. over the next month, i cannot consume any dairy, grain, legumes, nuts, citrus, alcohol, coffee, tea, refined sugar, or any fruit or vegetables that i currently eat more than once a week. i know, this sounds insane, but the thought of what i might find is almost more consuming than my appetite.